its been a long time...

haha, well it really has been a long time since i hace touched my blog... so much has happened since the last time... dont even remember the last time i blogged. oh well think it was march something. ah....yes..march ninth. :) lets see what has happened so far, 2 performances, mind champs, virtual debate....etcetc...this shall be a very short post will update with pics next time i promise!!!!!!!!!! :) <3>

itchyitchyitchy hands. plus last week of term 1=4 tests, 3 of which are on friday.

wonder why itchy handed? wel...hm..ven i dont know why. maybe its because its only 4 days to concert day? maybe cos its ive missed dearest marmar so much for the past week, it was there was something around me that was calling out "SEVEENIE!!!!!" in such dear earnest for me to help that something or wait for that something while im peacefully walking ahead or just for that something to strike the ultimate bimbo pose, despite her top-20-in-the-level-smartness, so that i can roll my eyes in jest and smile and feel happier. maybe its because i'm listening to dong bangs flower lady(one of the best songs in the world, well actually the whole mirotic album is like the best lols!) now. maybe its because of the bubbling stress in my brain because on the last week of term (which is this term), we sec3s coincidentally have the crazy task of handling 4 (some people have been telling me 5 but i find that highly doubtful) tests this week. 3 of which are on the same day...(cue my crazy-i do not want to put maniacal in a bid to stop martha from correcting spellings-laughter and hyperventilation right after....let it drag one for a minute)...2 of those subjects are what i would like to call "heavyweights" namely AMATHS (of which i really am struggling like hell to understand and apply) and CHEMISTRY, english is managable (thank god!). maybe its because i already know that i have F9 in my chinese for this term...(cue laughter-hyperventilation again)...i guess the only consolation out fo the whole week is that its the end of term and its concert day on saturday and im listening to jaejoong's solo right now. but its sad that i wont be able to support the team on friday considering that i have rehearsals at 6.30pm...sigh sorry team...someone please call me after asap to tell me the results ok?????? i am currently slacking which always makes me feel angry at myself. here is where the more solemn part of this post comes in and i start to get all honest and i type in proper english. well, on friday night i was listening to dongbang as usual and was thinking at 12 plus am. i was thinking about the past weeks of term 1 and i realised that compared to my many counterparts and peers in the school i have been unacceptably slack in and because of that i have caused much emotional stress to myself. (eg, the recent ss paper-which i know i will fail- why? because that day my alarm didnt ring, i had set it at like 4 to continue studying for ss because the previous night nothing was going through my thick head, anyway, i woke up super late at 6.40 when my maid came in and said "mei, 6.30 already." immediately in my head i was like "f***". yes, the notorious f-word ran across my mind in full bright red CAPS. i ran to the toilet and took a picture of myself in the mirror-why? cos my hair was surprisingly nice that morning it was like curly,haha,curly, haha. i have decided not to post the picture due to my retarded expression thus if you want to see the pic ask me in person and might just let you see what face looks like in the morning after a night of bad sleep- i was ready to leave a had called a taxi by 6.50 but guess what, the taxi came in 20mins even thought the stupid booking system said "5 to 7 minutes time" so i was like shitx100. so i was booked late for school, had to run to the general office to remark the register and had to run back befor efinally settling down to take the test. and it just went downhill from there, not because i couldnt do the questions which may i say were actually quite easy but because of the fact that i mistoook the source a box for the background information box above...so i completed the first question totally on the info box and then when i was going to move on to the second question i was like holy crap. literally my heart sank i dont think i have ever felt like that before. so in the end i redid the question and skipped the purpose part for the second question and only manged to do 2 paragraphs of the essay question.) then i was like if i continue being like this there is no way i can progress in both my studies and my dreams. so from next term onwards i have decided to put my full concentration on my studies first, followed by debate and followed by music etc. so please-this i s a plea of help to all my friends- help me to focus on what is important and what is of to priority...lets work hard together for the year! YAY! lols okok, awkwardness....oh well I shall end of here. good night everyone and i shall leave all of you good people now for you to enjoy the pretty pictures of the sky and the school i took with carissa during friday's reccess, we were walking around the track and singing our lungs out,lols :)

picture one:

picture 2:

i have decided to continue with the pictures tomorrow.

the wallpaper that made me feel slightly better

my current desktop wallpaper (^^)

really, there's nothing better than the cheap thrills of being a fan girl when you are in shitty moods. dongbangshinkisaranghaeyo! <3 crap, didnt even manage to practice vocals tonight.

the word for today's shitty day : shitty

today has been the shittiest day of my life this year. just plain shitty, the only non-shitty thing about today was that helping martha with her rebuttals, watching she and sharon argue of them, teaching yvette nobody dace moves, stretching our totally non-flexible legs on the staircase railing and helping sharon w. with her art thingy. right ow, asim typing in this post i still feel as shitty as can be. im slouching in my chair, im typing super slowly, and i have to make sure i dont spell wongly. plus my eyes are kinda dry and stingy and my head is starting to hurt. well isnt that just shitty. shittyshittyshittyshittyshittyshittyshittyshittyshitty.............i dont even have the energy to go into fan girl mode and start watching youtube videos (although i wouldnt mind watching an episode of we got married, i love that show (^^)) hm....lets see what contributed to my shitty mood. 1. 3 hours of sleep. 2. my computer totally lagging on me yesterday 3. my mum who goes "ruiying!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" all the time, then when i go to her room which i have to walk along corridoor to do so, which totally adds the shittyness to my mood, and then when im in her room i sit down on the sofa for 1-2 minutes just for her to show me some stupid tv programme and then after that she goes "get out of my room now." like wtf, seriously what the f***. and just just now, she asked me to go to her room again, super irritating, then ask me to eat strawberries, you know how strawberries have the inedible stalks right, i put that part back into the tupperware where the strawberries were from and then she scolds me and hits my arm... like seriously wtf. what the f***. so now i am doaing her, if she goes ruiying!!!!!!!!!!!!! i wont respond and pretend that im in the toilet. oh well, there's still school tomorrow. at least im going shopping for blouse and court shoes with my juniors tomorrow. yay....hopefully at the wheelock scrapbook shop the little charms that i want to get are still there and hopefully i can get some new paper for the cards i need to make for cheryl, sasa, christine and ziqing and also for wenting's and alicia's bookmark.yay......okok, seriosly feeling super shitty and kinda sick right now. maybe its cos i didnt eat reccess or lunch today. suddenly feeling sadistic as well. hate shitty moods and shitty mood swings

countdown to AOR concert commences

hey people of the world, the AOR-academy of rock-concert is on march 14, at suntec city (ROCK auditorium). lols actually thats all i know so far, so stay tuned for more details. happyhappyhappy + excitedexcitedexcited + :):):) + im singing breakaway[kellyclarkson] + carissa is singing get back[demilovato] + colleen is singing decode[paramore]!!!!!!!! WHOO! dunno if im playing drums though...hmm... if i am[i hope not due to the fact that i am hopeless at memorising drum scores] i think i'll be doing 1985. lols, its free so please come and support us!!!!!!!! :):):)

lols, heres the borders picture sharon wanted:

SPOT THE STARBUCKS!!!!!

heres a close up of it:

lols, was at boreders after MJC invites with sharong wong who was looking for a book when we saw this lols, we were like omg lols!

now here's a pic of the stickers i made for cca fair, lols, this pic is rather outdated;

lols, nice right!!!!!!!!!!! :)

a new beginning; a new year's resolution and a strengthened dream. a compromise must be made. (part one)

It's now 00:27 on my phone clock, 3rd january 2009. On my ipod speakers PROUD by DBSK is set on repeat. it is a song that i will never get tired of listening to. it gives me strength to believe in my dreams, to dare to dream, to reach out and try and grasp it, attempt i, believe in it. Yet it also makes me question myself. Will I be willing to endure the hardship, pressure, work, sacrifce this dream of mine would bring? Would I be willing to leave the comfort of my family and friends' love and supportjust to chase this dream of mine? Would all my sacrifice be worth it in the end? Even as i am writing this, I question myself, would i have enough self-discipline, enough motivation to practice, to hone and to master the craft of which my dream revolves around? Would i even make past the first stage? Would my parents allow this spoilt and pampered child of theirs to venture off on her own, without their watchful eye over her? Would i even gather the amount of strength, discipline and motivation that i need to work hard for this year, to show my parents that i am independant and that I would be mature enough to stand on my two feet alone? And even if I could, i would still need to find the answer for the question on whether i would be willing to leave the warmth of my family and friends to go off into an alien world in which everyone would be a complete stranger? Earlier on in the night, I had confided in an old friend. My tita lorna, the lady who helped my mum take care of me since the day i was born till the middle of the year i was 11. I thank her for her understanding, her advice & her encouragement towards me chasing my dream. Even though she was a domestic helper, she had seen me grow up, she has understood my character through and through. And sometime, it is with prickling to my conscience that i wonder if she knows me better than my parents do. This entry is dedicated whole-heartedly to Tita Lornma. Thank you Tita for always taking care of me, for taking the time to look after me. I wish you good health as you are adapting to your new life in spain. Please remember to wear in winter and keep cool in the summer. Hopefully one day, when you come back to Singapore, we will meet again. Love always, Mei.



This Entry is the start of a chronological process. As headed "A new beginning; a new year's resolution and a strengthened dream. A compromise must be made." To some of my closest friends and confidantes, they would know what my dream is. this chronological process is logged down in two places. 1, my journal. 2, my blog. My blog will not include the most private thoughts...of which i had jotted down in my journal. To all you readers out there, I give my best wishes to you, in hope that all your dreams will come true. Also this "series" will include my progress of my dream in the making. Stay tuned for updates! :)
.SweeEn.

P.S. to those close friendsof mine to whom i have disclosed my dream, please remember that you are sworn to secrecy, lols, and are most definitely not allowed to reveal to anyone my dream. (even though it may be obvious)

speeches in sentosa

hello all! i havent been blogging for ages obviously, so today, i have decided to blog... i am currently "overseas" in Sentosa. staying at the club onedegree15. supposedly relaxing... however, i would'nt exactly call doing debate speeches and reading economist articles relaxing. Why am i doing this you ask? Well, there is competition next saturday. Round 1: we are opp against HCI. Round 2: impromtu. Round 3: We are prop, against RI. GO SNDEBATE!!!!!!<3333 oh, we are having this the bangs deal thingy, of which if we win all 3 preliminary rounds, we are all going to get haircuts, in this case we are going to cut our fringes into bangs! hm... i wonder. tomorrow morning im going to underwater world and then head over to vivocity to watch madagascar 3 with my cousins! yay! hope i get to stay one more night in sentosa!!!!!!!!! :)