wonder why itchy handed? wel...hm..ven i dont know why. maybe its because its only 4 days to concert day? maybe cos its ive missed dearest marmar so much for the past week, it was there was something around me that was calling out "SEVEENIE!!!!!" in such dear earnest for me to help that something or wait for that something while im peacefully walking ahead or just for that something to strike the ultimate bimbo pose, despite her top-20-in-the-level-smartness, so that i can roll my eyes in jest and smile and feel happier. maybe its because i'm listening to dong bangs flower lady(one of the best songs in the world, well actually the whole mirotic album is like the best lols!) now. maybe its because of the bubbling stress in my brain because on the last week of term (which is this term), we sec3s coincidentally have the crazy task of handling 4 (some people have been telling me 5 but i find that highly doubtful) tests this week. 3 of which are on the same day...(cue my crazy-i do not want to put maniacal in a bid to stop martha from correcting spellings-laughter and hyperventilation right after....let it drag one for a minute)...2 of those subjects are what i would like to call "heavyweights" namely AMATHS (of which i really am struggling like hell to understand and apply) and CHEMISTRY, english is managable (thank god!). maybe its because i already know that i have F9 in my chinese for this term...(cue laughter-hyperventilation again)...i guess the only consolation out fo the whole week is that its the end of term and its concert day on saturday and im listening to jaejoong's solo right now. but its sad that i wont be able to support the team on friday considering that i have rehearsals at 6.30pm...sigh sorry team...someone please call me after asap to tell me the results ok?????? i am currently slacking which always makes me feel angry at myself. here is where the more solemn part of this post comes in and i start to get all honest and i type in proper english. well, on friday night i was listening to dongbang as usual and was thinking at 12 plus am. i was thinking about the past weeks of term 1 and i realised that compared to my many counterparts and peers in the school i have been unacceptably slack in and because of that i have caused much emotional stress to myself. (eg, the recent ss paper-which i know i will fail- why? because that day my alarm didnt ring, i had set it at like 4 to continue studying for ss because the previous night nothing was going through my thick head, anyway, i woke up super late at 6.40 when my maid came in and said "mei, 6.30 already." immediately in my head i was like "f***". yes, the notorious f-word ran across my mind in full bright red CAPS. i ran to the toilet and took a picture of myself in the mirror-why? cos my hair was surprisingly nice that morning it was like curly,haha,curly, haha. i have decided not to post the picture due to my retarded expression thus if you want to see the pic ask me in person and might just let you see what face looks like in the morning after a night of bad sleep- i was ready to leave a had called a taxi by 6.50 but guess what, the taxi came in 20mins even thought the stupid booking system said "5 to 7 minutes time" so i was like shitx100. so i was booked late for school, had to run to the general office to remark the register and had to run back befor efinally settling down to take the test. and it just went downhill from there, not because i couldnt do the questions which may i say were actually quite easy but because of the fact that i mistoook the source a box for the background information box above...so i completed the first question totally on the info box and then when i was going to move on to the second question i was like holy crap. literally my heart sank i dont think i have ever felt like that before. so in the end i redid the question and skipped the purpose part for the second question and only manged to do 2 paragraphs of the essay question.) then i was like if i continue being like this there is no way i can progress in both my studies and my dreams. so from next term onwards i have decided to put my full concentration on my studies first, followed by debate and followed by music etc. so please-this i s a plea of help to all my friends- help me to focus on what is important and what is of to priority...lets work hard together for the year! YAY! lols okok, awkwardness....oh well I shall end of here. good night everyone and i shall leave all of you good people now for you to enjoy the pretty pictures of the sky and the school i took with carissa during friday's reccess, we were walking around the track and singing our lungs out,lols :)
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picture 2:
i have decided to continue with the pictures tomorrow.
